We had some services at our church. They were called revival services. Two or three months ago, you start hearing talk about this planned revival we're having, and my first thoughts are, "You can't schedule revival." How lame is that, to think that just because you put some dates on a calendar and put the word "revival" on them that something is going to change?
I retract those feelings. Confess them as prideful.
Admit I did not understand.
And attempt to learn something from it.
I still believe you cannot
schedule revival by putting it on a calendar. It's not something that happens just because a few people want other people to change. BUT, if you can get it into the hearts of those who PRAY, I now believe you
can have INTENTIONAL revival. Not the services. Not the speaker. Not even the topic or the spur-of-the-moment decisions... but when people start
praying for revival - it's not "them" that change... it's "ME." I've seen this time and time again in my own life as I come to points of reflection. Sure, there are plenty of things and people I'd like to see God change, but when I start to really pray, what changes, is
my heart. I become intentional about what I think and say. I find myself actually caring
about the people involved in a situation instead of the situation itself.
All that to say, prayer changes things... sure... kind of... but really not. It's not the folding of hands, the closing of eyes, or the bowing of head. It's the POWER behind the prayer. The power of the one we pray TO, and the power He has instilled in US that makes things change... and most often, it starts, and finishes, with
me. That is where the difference is going to be made. If God is going to change others, He seems to most often do so not by my prayers forcing them to change, but by an internal change in
their own heart... and then, the "him" or "her"I'm praying for becomes their own "me."
I read in Galatians 4 this morning... about slavery and FREEDOM. Freedom. I love that word now. Probably because I have a glimpse of what it really is. And I understand more what I am still enslaved to, unwilling or unable (on my own) to be freed from.
Last night I heard my pastor share some of his heart, in no insignificant way... he was talking about the services, about the impact they were having, and about how the one thing he knew... was that they were impacting
him. Oh, if we could all say that... make it personal, applicable to my life, the people I influence, the life I live... to quit thinking "oh, he needs this" or "I wish so-and-so was here..." that is not it, at all.
Father, my heart is open to you. Cleanse it. Clean house. Fill it with Your Spirit. Not the tingly feeling I get when something emotionally or deep-down connects with me, but the filling that affects my life - that pours out of me without effort, without my getting in its way. Father, use me as You see fit. Waiting on you is hard, but yet, wonderful. It is painful and confusing, yet it is cleansing. I do not know where I will wind up 10 years from now, 5 years from now, or a week from now. And I do not care. Let me see how you want today to look. Give me enough of a glimpse of tomorrow, even it's not one I can understand, so that I can use today for your glorious future, on earth, or in heaven.
My soul, wait in silence for God only,
For my hope is from Him.
He only is my rock and my salvation,
My stronghold, I shall not be shaken.
On God my salvation and my glory rest;
The rock of my strength, my refuge is in God.
Trust in Him at all times, O people;
Pour out your heart before him;
God is a refuge for us.
Psalm 62